I have had really amazing spiritual teachers on my own journey and still I sometimes feel like – I don’t know what I am doing or, can someone please tell me how to do that. Is there a manual?
In this not knowing what is right and what is wrong seems to be the magic. Maybe that is the secret. Being with the unknown. Always staying a student.
Making myself as empty as possible to allow the mystery to unfold. Inviting people into a deep journey of self-exploration and staying present with what ever comes up with the openness to change direction in any moment.
Letting source be my guide to feel what is needed rather than getting stuck with an idea or linear manual. Making people and their emotions more important than the topic.
At some point in my last retreat I had the feeling that I am not even teaching anything. I thought I should explain more or share more in depth details with words.
But what happens as we gather in an ocean of love is a natural blossoming for every flower involved.
Of course there a practices and technics but we are simply learning by being with each other as human beings. Becoming a mirror and teacher for each other. Supporting each other with love. That is the medicine.
The only thing I can do is to create a safe space and invite people into an embodied experience.
I feel we learn most efficient when we are in a relaxed state. So I love to create moments of silence, long slow deep breaths, lot’s of touch and integration time.
I trust the process, my impulses as well as my students own inner wisdom and truth.
My willingness to burn in the fire and facing my own fears and insecurities allows me to be vulnerable and authentic. This gives others the permission to do the same.
Before the first Yoni Egg workshop I taught I was very worried about the whole thing, thinking that as much as I love the topic of femininity and sacred sexuality, all those negative feelings were going to come back, remembering my time at high school and how I felt sick in my stomach most of the mornings.
But to my surprise, this feeling left in the moment I opened the space with a meditation. I certainly never enjoyed a working day that much ever.
I love what I am teaching. It’s brings me so much pleasure and in that I give myself completely.
I care for people in a world that is mainly ruled by fear. Guiding them with a sense that their life will be transformed by love after fills my heart with joy.
In school we learn to earn for living but not to live life fully guided by our own hearts.
As I am speaking to the hearts of others I am staying connected to the altar of my own heart. My voice carries the flavour of love, acceptance and non-judgement.
And over the last year I learned to not take things to serious what results in lot’s of joyful laughing transmissions that my students really enjoy.
Being in service of love excited me and makes me very humble at the same time.